Well.. FUCK YOU!

If Ke$ha can wake up feeling like P. Diddy, then hey I'm allowed to feel like a certain black guy this Saturday morning too - namely, Cee Lo Green.

At around 10am as it happens, I got up thinking "Oh God, I'm broke, so yeah..

                                                                            fuck this shit


Everyone has that angry, scolding voice in them - the one that surfaces when things go down south. Mine's that 17-year-old bitch from those days I was stuck with a clueless German boyfriend; the same one who couldn't keep his dick down longer than it takes Dora to pause in between questions. And when you have a boyfriend whose cock has been in more holes than a pound of Swiss cheese, you tend to get pretty angsty.

But I digress.

Angsty was raging as it went, "THAT'S WHAT YOU GET FOR SHOPPING TOO MUCH, YOU BROKE PIECE OF SHIT. AHAHAHAHA, MOTHERFUCKER!" all morning while I was still in bed. Well, I thought quietly, FUCK YOU for putting up with your impulses and henceforth, putting yourself in this position. And I was going to have pleasant company on a beautiful Saturday like today - in the arms of the most beautiful boy I know, no less. A spoilt brat* like me would feel so disoriented when removed from his daily comforts (read: unnecessary spending).

But a boy gotta learn (read: beg, borrow or steal).

                                                                            Or hustle.

As it turns out, Cee Lo Green picked out the tune for the day and set the tempo for it. Because it wasn't enough to stop at just cursing myself for being a jackass brokeass, but some people came along as well. And some things just needed to be said and set out straight - and here it is:

1. FUCK YOU for walking out of my life.
2. FUCK YOU for choosing to treat a wonderful and sweet guy with lies and suspicion.
3. FUCK YOU for choosing to treat a warm, loyal and caring friend with bullshit and tantrums.
4. FUCK YOU for pushing away the one person who was willing to listen and understand.
5. Oh and FUCK YOU for being you, asshole.

How you read and interpret the list is entirely up to you: be it all the points referring to one person, or one to each person respectively, or in chronological order as it happens with one person - or all of them, respectively. Chances are, it's all of the above. How sad.

Still, it was a fabulous day spent with Love and loved ones. Seriously, fuck them all who have hurt me before because i have my Love now: he's all that I need <3

Goodnight.